Jesus, give me eyes to see everything in my life for what they really are. Give me a clear mind and heart to see through the delusions and fantasies that I created in myself so that I can make decisions that are loving and glorifying to You, loving towards others and loving towards myself.
Brother in Christ,
Eric Kim
1. Go to Jesus about this.
2. Take it slow.
3. Be wise and discerning!
4. Don’t over analyze, over fantasize, and over think this!
5. Jesus be the center of it all!
6. Go to Jesus about this!!
Brother in Christ,
Eric Kim
Coming back from a FULL day. i was just watching a bit of TMNT 1 the movie and my whole weekend was expressed in the first 16 minutes of the movie! Here is the scene that I need to sit with.
I know this sounds strange, but i hope this makes sense.
So in beginning of the movie, Raphael is pissed cause he lost one of his sai’s(his weapon) in battle, he then gets beat up by casey jones, and gets made fun of because of the way he looks.
He comes back home crazy angry. Splinter is waiting for him and this is what happens….
Splinter: Raphael, come sit by me.
Raphael: Couldn’t this wait ‘til morning?
Splinter: You will listen now. My Master Yoshi’s first rule was “Possess the right thinking.” Only then can one receive the gifts of strength, knowledge, and peace. I have tried to channel your anger, Raphael, but more remains. Anger clouds the mind. Turned inward it is an unconquerable enemy. You are unique among your brothers, for you choose to face this enemy alone. But as you face it, do not forget them, and do not forget me. I am here, my son.
Wow….this really helped me see myself. i am channeling so much outward and inwards.
not only my anger. my sin, loneliness, struggles, stupid decisions….gahhhhhhhhhhhhh! so much garbage.
Jesus is here for me. He is my father. i am not alone.
This is an interesting place in my walk with Jesus. not backsliding. moving forward by Jesus’ transforming spirit.
Brother in Christ,
Eric Kim
1. Friday: My good friend, Sarah Li, graduates from Vanguard, hung out after graduation and i got to see m old room mates! HAPPY!
2. Friday: I picked up my senior pastor from the airport, but because of mis-communication and just blahhhhhhhhhh I got scolded by him. Prayed that Jesus would help me to have an attitude of humbleness towards the harsh words of my pastor and He answered. angry/frustrated/humbled/thankful.
3. Saturday:Sarah called right before she left for Korea and i couldn’t say a proper goodbye because i had to leave for Arizona mission training. rushed/sad/sad/sad/thankful/reminded of Jesus’ love.
4. Saturday: Arizona mission training went well! Thankful/happy/relieved!
5. Saturday: tried to fix a situation, but i think i made it worse or made it bigger deal than it actually is and i said things with good intentions, but expressed it in a overwhelming and unwise manner. frustrated/humbled/humbled/humbled.
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It’s only Saturday….please Jesus….help me to lean on You. slow down, breathe, think, listen, pray, listen, reflect and meditate.
if i had to describe my feelings into one word right now it would be…..
TMNT 1 (14:28-31). if you could decipher this then that’s pretty amazing.
Brother in Christ,
Eric Kim
Wow. Today was filled with so many emotions. And saying goodbye to my only friend in SoCal was so hard to do. Thanks Sarah for being a great sister in Christ. Have a safe flight to Korea and China.
I read this in my devotional today is every word convicted me. I hope that it does the same anyone reading this.
“Is this going to be a period of purification, Lord? Is this going to be a time when you give me insight into the chains that bind me and the courage to throw them off? Is this going to be my chance to see my prison and escape it?
John Eudes said: ‘This is a time of purification. A time to identify your ambiguous relationships and your ambivalent attitudes, and to make some decisions and choose some directions.’ Lord, it is you who said this to me. If I believe in your church and the voice of those who speak in her name, in your name, then it was you who pointed out to me the meaning of my stay here: ‘Identify and choose.’
And you also said, ‘Pray even when you do not feel attracted to it.’ Yes, Lord, I will try to pray, even when I am afraid to face you and myself, even when I keep falling asleep or feel as though I am going around in circles, even when it seems that nothing is happening. Yes, Lord, I will pray- not only with others, not only supported by the rhythms of the choir, but also alone with you. I will try not to be afraid. Lord, give me courage and strength. Let me see myself in the light of your mercy and choose you. Amen.”
-From A Cry for Mercy by Henri J.M. Nouwen
Brother in Christ,
Eric Kim
Being with Jesus gives me life, love, purpose, peace, joy, identity, security, and wholeness.
Being with sin gives me insecurity, worry, stress, loneliness, bitterness, negativity, selfishness, laziness, idleness, fear, and sadness.
I need to remember these things.
Brother in Christ,
Eric Kim
“Then Jesus declared, “I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never go hungry, and whoever believes in me will never be thirsty.” John 6:35 NIV
NEVER go hungry. NEVER be thirsty.
Jesus, I’ve been trying so hard to be with You and at the same time be with the world, but when I reflect on my life…I’m still hungry. Still thirsty. Please draw me into ONLY You so that I’m NEVER hungry again. NEVER thirst again.
Brother in Christ,
Eric Kim
